cry

I need to cry im holding too much in

but it wont let me, the tears wont come

i dreamt of intestines which symbolizes a great evil, or disaster

i fear this is what may come

i have everything i ever wanted, no one ever gets everything they want

my skin is crawling, i cant stand to be here any longer

but i have to, for 9 days

i love you so much my heart cant take it

i wish i were a better person for you, i promise im trying