fearless

a friend once told me that in order to become a pro surfer/skater or in any extreme sport, you have to have reached it by age 20....
the chinese raise some of the best gymnastists in the world, all before they have reached the age of 16...

why am I speaking of this?

I consider these to be some of the most dangerous and extreme activities...
think about it...running at full speed at an inatimate object, flinging your self into the air while trying to land on a 6 inch beam...or reaching over 20 mph on a piece of wood, 6 inches wide, on a concrete ramp flying into the air...and trying to land steady on this piece of wood 6 inches long with 4 wheels attached to it...or paddling into a huge tsunami, over three times the size of you with the crushing force of the waves overhead and harsh brittle reef below...
NUTS...i tell you nuts!
why in the fuck do people do this!

and all at such a young age...

I read once that your risk assesment skills are not fully developed until you reach 21...could this be why..

that at such a young age we are not able to feel fear as easily as those who are are older..
hmm perhaps this has a link to juvenile delinquency...when your young, you think your invincible and fear nothing, not your parents, not gravity, not the law, and not life.

I had an anxiety attack the other day...because I realized that at 18 I left the only place I ever called home, left all my friends/my parents/my family, moved out, took out an ass load of student loans and moved an ocean and country away to a place I had never been to before..why? Fearless...

I was fearless, I wasnt afaird of failure, of debt, of lonelieness, of life.

And had I waited a year, or two...I would never have done what I did..I would have never seen the world away, tasted the most delicious delicacies, felt the bitter cold, seen the leaves of autumn, met the biggest assholes, and most wonderful individuals, and experienced the life of a new yorker....not only have I experienced NY but being here opened me up to so many opportunities, I met a friend who took me to Philadelphia, I found my true passion in life, I got the opportunity to go SOUTH, and spend the summer in Canada...and the most important thing...I got to to grow up

As scary as it is sometimes, its one of the most accomplishing feelings..to know that you can take care of yourself, that you dont need anyone, and that I truly am invincible.