en vie

so my russian visa is only for a month

and i didnt know what to do for the whole month i have until my studyabroad program

now i know

im going to bavaria, germany and working on a farm

yes i am! im spending my summer in the countryside of germany!!

and russia! and the french film festival ended

goddamn it was awesome still relinquishing in all my free shit

like these amazinggg french drinks that taste like cream soda but are healthy!

oh and my best friend arrives in 2 days!!!

you dont know how excited i am to be alive!!

oddly wonderful

i woke this morning feeling like im somewhere else
like nothing in the world could bother me
that i no longer knew you
and i liked it

and then i loved you, because i cried
but it was a dream but i feel like it happenned
and im gonna let myself think it has because its left me feeling this way
which i can describe as utter utopia

there are some

truly wonderful people in this world

the ones that remembered matter

this is kaitlynn, 20 years old, happy beyond belief!

its not everyday

you get a special invitation from Russia

or mail from Russia

or a visa application for Czech Republic

or invited to go to Dublin and Amsterdam for a ffucking insane time

or you turn 20, and the fact that you are alive is enough reason to be happy and celebrate with life

note to self

happy 20th birthday

im sorry i couldnt celebrate
and let you do anything and everything kaitlynn today

but it seems im too busy to have a birthday
so does this mean that im not 20?

everyone failed
never expect people to do more than the norm, they are so ordinary and average

tricked

purchase tricked me
i thought it was a place for those who are different, the minorities
its not..it was confirmed when i actually met better versions of people i already knew
the ones i loved, hated purchase as much as i do, or purchase hates them

the decision to leave is perfect

im a misfit among misfits, but im not alone

i learned that i am that 1 out of 4 people (the exceptions)
the ones who truly cant fit in, even in a school built on the perception of challenging the norm
theyre the most mundane individuals ive met

hipsters are the most disgusting group of people, and i just cant get along with black people

i am usually a good judge of character but i totally misread her
ill invite her home

im sorry i overlooked you
lets be friends now

that just happenned

atlanta
i found better versions of people i already knew
of course i make wonderful friends when im about to leave
i wished that i carried around a bag a rocks so i could throw them at you
then you compliment me relentlessly.shit.

italian films suck
there are more bad than good, but the good outshines the good
i can handle anything

i lost my ipod (again) and my fisheye camera
and i dont even care

im a dirty jerk

i have to go on a diet. not for my weight for my body, i was very mean to it last week

im all disheveled
i cant believe it all happenned
i felt like was thrown in a blender with 14 other odd flavors and made this weird but delicious shake
and now its gone

i need a vacation from my vacation
i want to go back but i like where i am now

i used to be jealous when i traveled alone, and saw people in groups
now i cant wait to be alone again

im very likeable

i have one month left in New york
this always happens the last days are always the best days