Its been 20 years and I still havent met you
we still dont know each other
but I am learning who you were, before I was
Im reading your dreams, FDIM!! Really mom! You were accepted!
Mom thats wonderful! I feel a bit guilty for taking your dreams from you
maybe you didnt go because you didnt think it would be practical.
I swear to God I will burst into flames if I see another person give up on their dreams because its not practical
Mom, these words your writing..theyre beautiful
and Im realizing we are more alike than I thought
I am your daughter and I hope that you are proud of me
I am going to live each and every dream, because you couldn't
Thank you for giving me all this
samedi 5 juin 2010
mercredi 2 juin 2010
stop holding my breath
Czech republic visa approved and ready for my pickup
I cannot wait to return to NY Consulate passport in hand, smile on face.
I can finally breathe
I just need to find out my work schedule
I found everything, no black hole in this room
I dreamt you died and woke up in your bed, and was happy that your alive
what is it about you that I need to have?
Your youth, curiousity, everlasting trust/belief that this world is good and beautiful?
I'm seeing it again, I hate that I have to leave you always.
But I'll come back and I'll be here for a while, for you.
I cannot wait to return to NY Consulate passport in hand, smile on face.
I can finally breathe
I just need to find out my work schedule
I found everything, no black hole in this room
I dreamt you died and woke up in your bed, and was happy that your alive
what is it about you that I need to have?
Your youth, curiousity, everlasting trust/belief that this world is good and beautiful?
I'm seeing it again, I hate that I have to leave you always.
But I'll come back and I'll be here for a while, for you.
vendredi 21 mai 2010
the I will List
within the next 7 days I will
get a job
get my license
go surfing at least 2x
beach it till im black and brown
finish essay
book ticket
USAC
lundi 10 mai 2010
this is it
the last night
and i hope to god it ends soon
it cant go by any slower
i want to shoot them all
this is it
this is the fucking last
and i hope to god it ends soon
it cant go by any slower
i want to shoot them all
this is it
this is the fucking last
the list
of things that will happen when i am home
kapena falls
seven falls
sacred falls
manana trail
get a fucking job
catamaran boat ride
floatie waikiki rental
license
snorkeling (northshore)
waianae beach day
see kamalei/baby
kapena falls
seven falls
sacred falls
manana trail
get a fucking job
catamaran boat ride
floatie waikiki rental
license
snorkeling (northshore)
waianae beach day
see kamalei/baby
vendredi 7 mai 2010
jeudi 6 mai 2010
stupid
ive never felt this way before
its kind of liberating
cause you just dont give a fuck and it doesnt really bother you
and it doesnt matter anyway cause when she tells you you failed
shes speaking french
and you failed french
so you dont understand a word.
its kind of liberating
cause you just dont give a fuck and it doesnt really bother you
and it doesnt matter anyway cause when she tells you you failed
shes speaking french
and you failed french
so you dont understand a word.
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